14 6 / 2013
26 4 / 2013
I love him
i love him with all my heart and all my soul and all my being, i love him
i believe there’s nothing that will ever stop that feeling in me. I don’t believe that you can stop loving someone, i can’t comprehend such a thing. If you ever really loved someone then there’s no way you can stop loving them, that’s what i believe. Whenever anyone asks me if i loved/love him i answer them with a simple, honest, confident ‘yes’. Not a single moment’s hesitation,
His laugh, his smile, his energy, his lovability, his understanding, his manipulation, his priorities, his pet peeves, his silliness, his smartness, his idioticness, his sweetness, his kindness, his meanness, his likes, his way of living, his way of dealing with problems, his way of thinking, his dreams, his passion, his hands, his smell, his eyes, his heart….how can you just randomly forget about all these things that you loved so much and want around you all the time? I don’t get how people expect that out of me cause I know it’s not possible and will never be possible
yes i can be his friend, but i can never lose the way i feel about him, it will always be there, hidden, or disguised which I’m ok with, because he’s still one of my best friends and one of the only people that understand me and know me and accept me so well. His existence in my life has pushed me forward and made me a stronger, more confident woman and i will never give him up for anything
I want nothing more than for him to find someone that will love him as much as i do. I pray for it every night, more than i pray for anything else. it’s just so unfair that i couldn’t be that person for him.
13 3 / 2013
I miss him as my boyfriend…..i really do! it’s been amazing hanging out with him as a friend and it has re-surfaced that spark we had at the start of it all, but i miss him as my boyfriend sooooo much it aches my heart
or it could be that i’m lacking intimacy! cause recently i’ve begun hugging anything around my bed in the middle of my sleep, completely out of my control! even if it’s a huge pillow that’s un-hugable! well that’s how i’ve analyzed it!
01 3 / 2013
I feel like I’m not wanted anywhere anymore
Only back home in Kuwait, where I have my real friends and my family
And I can’t go back there anytime soon cause I can’t afford it so I’m stuck here rotting alone
I hate this place so much
I just want to either die or go back home forever and forget about all that’s happened to me in the past 4 years
01 3 / 2013
"The odd thing about this form of communication is that you’re more likely to talk about nothing than something. But I just want to say that all this nothing has meant more to me than so many somethings."
23 2 / 2013
It didn’t just happen; these things never “just happen”. They progress into happening. They develop from a million thoughts and feelings and near misses, and then, they happen. And when they do, when they finally happen, you remember them, because they’ve already happened a thousand times in your head. And there is no way to know whether reality was better than your imagination; the two versions are intertwined in your memory.
Most importantly, it happened.
12 1 / 2013